I Love Uni - don't I?

So. I can no longer avoid the fact that I absolutely have to leave home. Tomorrow is the day. But, fuck, I'm so nervous :/
My whole life I have been waiting to get out on my own, get away from my parents, my friends and even who i am. A fresh start is always what I wanted. But now that I have the option, it sucks. I dont want to leave my mommy. :(

Now I know what you're thinking. You are all like 'wtf is up with this chick? leaving home, nothin' wrong with that, yo'"

Well, truth is, I dont think I can do it on my own. If I freak out, who is going to be around to tell me to calm down? I'll be on my own for the first time ever.

Thats a lie. When I was 10 I lived with my father. This is shortly after my parents divorced and life kinda sucked. I was chunky and miserable. I had no friends, no parental control and a bad attitude.My dad left me by myself alot. I had to buy my own groceries at age 10/11. I rode the city bus to school everyday where I was consistently made fun of. Life was dumb and not worth it. I had wanted to move with my mom for the longest time, but I was the only one the social worker wouldnt listen to. She left me with someone who could care less what I was up to. I never really though about it but its kind of sad. I hadn't cried about my childhood in a long time. I just accepted the fact that it sucked, and so what- other people have it way worse. I find myself tearing up now, because I've realized that sometimes parents dont know best, and they can really fuck you over. I'm not going to let that happen, just because my parents are...interesting people, doesnt mean I can't get over it. I have. Just so happens that the fact I've gotten over shitty things life has thrown at me and my family makes me less tolerable when people constantly complain about the same thing, and let it consume their life.

Fuck it, get over it, embrace it. If you dont, life sucks. No point in dealing with a double whammy of suckish.

Anyways- just a lil' off topic there.. ha

-seductive dancing, Jerri Style-


No. I am excited to adventurize all over Kingston.
& Uni is going to be sick.
This whole situation is so love/hate.
But I'm tired, and uh, Lizzie McGuire is on soooo..
I'll just say this;
I'll be visiting often, bitches <3